As of today I have lost nearly 45 pounds
Posted on April 27th, 2008 by Techievampire
Drumroll please….. 291!
*Monday 290… holy cow
Still where I was
Posted on April 26th, 2008 by Techievampire
Which is good, 293, considering I haven’t exercised that much. I’ve been watching what I’ve been eating so that may be helping. The past few weeks have been really rough. I didn’t feel human due to not sleeping right. Think I’ve got that figured out now.
Excuse me! I was wrong! Just noticed I’d weighed in at 296… now I’m at 293! I’ve lost 3 freakin pounds!
I received two new exercise DVDs I ordered. Both Leslie Sansone. Older ones they’ve put on DVD. Wow… they’re going to take some getting used to. I think she dumbed down her workout for the walk away the pounds DVDs… it’s also easier for the physically limited. Excellent DVDs. I bought her DVD on pilates. Ouch. Watched it and it looks painful. lol Also got another walk/areobics DVD. A 2 and 4 mile version. Haven’t tried them out but laughed myself silly watching them this morning on x8 speed. lol
Starting Over
Posted on April 21st, 2008 by Techievampire
Illness, injury, stress, whatever. I’m starting over.
296lbs
Virtual walk:
117 miles to Tulsa: 61 miles walked: 56 miles left to go
4/21:
4/22:
4/23:
4/24:
4/25:
4/26:
Haven’t exercised in a week
Posted on April 4th, 2008 by Techievampire
For a couple of different reasons. It sucked around here due to stress being one and I was sick for another. We’ve also gone off program more than a couple of times this past week. Richard was sick as well. Weight-wise I did go up a bit but I’m sitting here in shock right now because I weighed myself this morning and it was 294.50! Damn!
I DO think I’ve changed the way I react to stress. As an example Richard called me the other night and told me that he had to go to another damned mandatory meeting at work the next day. The stress level tripled because we have no idea what the hell they’re going to say in these meetings since his job is basically going to be ending at some point. I’ve also been battling insomnia and I think as soon as he told me Richard knew, without meaning to, that he’d made it worse. There was no way in hell I’d be able to sleep after hearing that. I didn’t sleep. But I also didn’t do something that I might have done in the past.
My first instinct was that I needed food. Stress reaction. BUT instead of reaching for something carbohydrate heavy I thought about it for a few minutes and instead got out the wok at nearly 2 in the morning and made myself a wok full of steaming chinese hell. Broccoli, carrots, bell pepper, onion, garlic, lemon grass, snow peas, and kung pao sauce (hot, hot, hot!). The wok was almost full and I ate the whole damned thing… with chopsticks while I watched the Towering Inferno on TV. No rice. Just veggies. Last nights dinner was really low points wise and after Richard left for work I had some bagel chips and a wedge of laughing cow lower fat cheese so I would have something else on my stomach when I took my meds. I’ve also been swigging water for all it’s worth.
So I’m back to where I was with the weight and I’ll slowly get back to where I was exercising. That will take a little time. But I can do it.
The meeting? Well it was another of their “We haven’t made any decisions and blah, blah, blah” again. Really fucking irritating. Get everyone even more stressed out. But we’re okay for awhile I guess. So back to doing what I was doing.
Today we wait for a delivery of blank dvds we ordered. They were supposed to be here yesterday but after noticing there was a problem with the tracking yesterday I called and after an hour found out that our DVDs were on a train that had had a problem. They arrive today. Richard bless his heart called yesterday while I took a short nap to find out that my table is ready they’re just waiting for UPS to pick it up to deliver it. (Sometime from the 8th to the 14th.)
Then we’re going to Super Cao Ngyuyen. A HUGE asian market here in town. I’ve never been there but Richard said I’d love it. They have Japanese plates and bowls and I am so there it’s frightening! Never mind sauces, veggies, and the fresh seafood (swimming) that they have! lol
But for now I’m sitting back, resting, listening to something I love: Streaming Soundtracks and patting myself on the back for not having eaten my way into oblivion during the past week! 
Damn.. just damn!
Posted on March 23rd, 2008 by Techievampire
I can’t believe that since the last week of January I’ve walked 55 miles!
I used to go to Walmart and nearly die from all the walking. Now I go to walmart (a super walmart) and have no problems. I park out in the back 40 so I can walk even further. I see skinny people gasping and complaining about how huge the place is and I almost snicker. Okay, I snicker quietly to myself. The knees don’t hurt as much and I’m more flexible. The arthritis in my feet isn’t as bad and they really only hurt when the weather changes.
At first my goal was 275. What I weighed when Richard and I met. Now I’m thinking of going even lower.
If I tried for 200 (which is less than I was in High School) that would mean I’d have lost 135 lbs. I could go for 185 - 180. I don’t really want to go too much lower because being 5′11 I think that would be too much. Statuesque…. that works. Or as Richard describes it.. an amazon.
Yeah, an Amazon with grey hair.. I’m NOT coloring the hair. I earned every fucking one of these grey hairs.
Speaking of grey hair, we were watching The Rock last night with Sean Connery. I told Richard I was going to take a shower and wash my “Sean Connery grunge look hair”. He laughed. I shook it loose out of the hair band and asked him what he thought it looked like.
He said the Sean Connery grunge look. lol
I am considering having it cut. But I want the two white streaks (and they are white) in front to be emphasized. My Aunts love my hair. Elaine had less grey hair than I did when she saw it! It’s taken a long time to embrace the grey. A couple of years ago I dyed it and it finally dawned on me that when it was dyed it made my complexion look strange. I looked extremely pale. With the grey I look normal. So.. grey it stays.
Update: Exercise
Posted on March 21st, 2008 by Techievampire
60 miles left on my virtual journey to Tulsa (115 at the start)
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Shoulder is much better. Still not lifting heavy objects.
3/20: 3 miles
3/21: Nothin (3 hours sleep. nuff said.)
3/22: Nothin (Too busy getting ready for company)
3/23: 2 miles
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Goals:
My first goal was to hit that 300 mark. I did that.
The next goal was to get underneath 300. Done.
My next goal is to get to 290.
This morning I weighed in at 294.50
Small goals. One bite and mile at a time.
296
Posted on March 19th, 2008 by Techievampire
Not because of exercise… still fighting with my shoulder. Got a little too adventurous while exercising and screwed up my shoulder. Richard has made me take it easy. No exercise and no heavy lifting. It’s feeling better but it’s a bitch when you sleep on your right side normally and you can’t. I’ve been averaging between 2 hours and 4 hours of sleep a night. I’m tired.
Update: Exercise
Posted on March 13th, 2008 by Techievampire
My virtual walk to Tulsa (115 miles):
67 miles to go
3/8: 1 mile
3/9: Short walk to get mail (Shoulder giving me fits for the past 2 days. resting it for a few days.)
3/10: 3 miles
3/11: 5 miles
3/12: Nothin (extremely stressful day)
3/13: 2 miles (Down 1 lb)
3/13: 2 miles
3/14: Nothin (on 4 hours sleep I can’t think let alone exercise)
3/15:
Truth
Posted on March 10th, 2008 by Techievampire
I’m about to be very honest about something I’ve dealt with all of my life. I don’t broadcast what I’m about to talk about to people especially online. But I think I need to be honest about this because maybe just maybe it might help someone else.
Before I tell the god’s honest truth about my weight I want to say a few things. I am 5′11 and large boned. Think amazon and that describes my height and build. lol
My original weight before I started dieting was 335 lbs. Feel free to gasp, say OMG, or whatever. lol I’m used to it.
As I said that was my original weight. At this time I now weigh 297.
I wasn’t always overweight. When I was young I resembled a dark haired Laura Ingalls. Long braids (I could sit on my hair it was so long), thin, knobby knees, and freckles.. mustn’t forget the freckles. Then at some point in Elementary school something happened at school that caused me to gain weight. My Mother didn’t even know what happened. It took me years to finally figure out what had triggered the weight gain. I won’t go into what exactly happened because I don’t like to talk about it. Because of what happened I felt ugly and I guess in some way I gained weight to hide and protect myself. When I was a teenager I went through even more trauma because of my parents divorce which didn’t help. I didn’t look people in the eye when I talked to them. I stared at the ground. I was incredibly shy. In some small ways I still am. Which will probably shock those who know me. lol
As nuts as it sounds it was because I discovered the internet that I stopped staring at the ground. I didn’t have to worry about what people saw when they looked at me. On the internet I could be myself and say what I thought. I started changing. I looked people in the eye when I spoke to them and became less shy in RL. I’m strange. I never lied about myself online. If I was getting close to someone I told them the truth. If they couldn’t handle it.. tough. Then something else happened that made things worse. I was vulnerable because of what had happened in the past and because of that I was hurt again. This time I went off on a tangent. Not illegal drugs, drinking, etc. But I punished myself in ways I didn’t think of as punishing myself at the time. Now I understand. Thank god.
Then I met Richard. We met online. We got along at first because we both have a wicked sense of humor. We had a lot of things in common including having both lost our Mothers to Cancer. We also both loved food and cooking. I proposed online Feb 14th. He accepted and from then until the day we actually met face to face (Feb 20th… we moved fast. lol) we considered ourselves “married”. (We didn’t actually get married until April 18th.) It wasn’t until a few days before we met that we sent each other pictures. We didn’t care. Richard accepted me for what I was and I felt the same about him. At that point I weighed 275 lbs.
Years later, one pregnancy and birth later, and I was at 335. I was recently diagnosed as pre-diabetic. My Mother was a diabetic so I know what that means. Now I’m on a diet and I exercise. I used to think “exercise” was a dirty word. lol
Because of what happened to me I can at times feel guilty for no reason. Now I use that guilty feeling to my advantage. lol If I eat something I shouldn’t I feel guilty (I do forgive myself though.) If I don’t walk or exercise I feel guilty. It works for me and keeps me moving. lol I feel better and my Doctor loves that he didn’t have to verbally abuse me to get me off my ass. lol I chose to do it on my own. My Doctor tells me that if I lose the weight my blood pressure should go down and I may get off the medication for it. Which is good. He also claims that exercise helps with stress. It does to some extent but in my case I’ve had enough stress for the past year to kill a bull elephant. I’m still here so it must do some good.
Excuse the rambling… all of this was my attempt to be honest and tell the truth about myself and my weight. Clearing the air so to speak. Anyway I’ve got crap to do… gotta run… or walk or exercise or something. lol
Update: Diet
Posted on March 10th, 2008 by Techievampire
3/9: After finding a recipe for Kung Pao sauce at Ming Tsai’s website I made Kung Pao chicken. Instead of serving it over rice we had it over bean sprouts. Richard loved it. It was really good… spicy but good. I added a lot of fresh veggies and made enough for 2. Richard balked a bit at not having rice but decided to try it over the bean sprouts, which he likes, he was surprised at how it filled him up. I’ve been going through a chinese cookbook he bought me as a xmas present years ago figuring points for the recipes. I see a lot of chinese food in our future.
Today he’s going to work on a friends computer and has talked the friend into stopping at this HUGE asian market so he can check out what they have. He’s been given orders (by moi) to see if they have low-sodium soy sauce and a few other things. Including a flat bottomed wok to use on our electric (hiss!) stove. He knows I’m a sucker for anything asian.. food, dishes, cookware, etc. lol