Wow

This morning I didn’t feel like the battle over food. With myself. I’m sick and couldn’t face anything “healthy”. I made Richard cereal and toast before he went to work and I made myself two slices of toast too.

My BG two hours later was 98. Huh?!? Toast and it was 98? I think it’s because it’s a diet bread.. you know lower carbs/calories. Not THAT diet-like but something Richard will eat. But this is cool because I could get by with two slices of toast with 1 tbsp of low salt/low sugar peanut butter in between. Ala sandwich.

Think I’ll experiment a little with my snack…

Cool

Last night I discovered that I can eat a large meal and not have a huge increase in blood glucose. I had, get this, some pork rinds before dinner, 2 chicken tenderloins dipped in egg white and then in parmesan cheese and baked, salad, broccoli and my favorite food turnips (can’t have potatoes and they’ll do in a pinch). I also had a cookie I’d made yesterday. a chocolate chip meringue. They’re good and only 3 carbs.

For breakfast I had 1/3 cup bran buds with some half and half. Honestly bran buds look like mouse turds but I don’t have much choice cereal wise unless I buy something online.

I’ve also just about given up Dr Pepper. *HORROR* It does horrible things to my blood sugar. Jacks it up around 25 points. At this point I’ve got the number down to around 101. If I exercise I can get it down another 20. I’d be happy at 80 or 70.

Update

288 as of today.

As of today I have lost nearly 45 pounds

Drumroll please….. 291!

*Monday 290… holy cow

Still where I was

Which is good, 293, considering I haven’t exercised that much. I’ve been watching what I’ve been eating so that may be helping. The past few weeks have been really rough. I didn’t feel human due to not sleeping right. Think I’ve got that figured out now.

Excuse me! I was wrong! Just noticed I’d weighed in at 296… now I’m at 293! I’ve lost 3 freakin pounds!

I received two new exercise DVDs I ordered. Both Leslie Sansone. Older ones they’ve put on DVD. Wow… they’re going to take some getting used to. I think she dumbed down her workout for the walk away the pounds DVDs… it’s also easier for the physically limited. Excellent DVDs. I bought her DVD on pilates. Ouch. Watched it and it looks painful. lol Also got another walk/areobics DVD. A 2 and 4 mile version. Haven’t tried them out but laughed myself silly watching them this morning on x8 speed. lol

Starting Over

Illness, injury, stress, whatever. I’m starting over.

296lbs

Virtual walk:

117 miles to Tulsa: 61 miles walked: 56 miles left to go

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Haven’t exercised in a week

For a couple of different reasons. It sucked around here due to stress being one and I was sick for another. We’ve also gone off program more than a couple of times this past week. Richard was sick as well. Weight-wise I did go up a bit but I’m sitting here in shock right now because I weighed myself this morning and it was 294.50! Damn!

I DO think I’ve changed the way I react to stress. As an example Richard called me the other night and told me that he had to go to another damned mandatory meeting at work the next day. The stress level tripled because we have no idea what the hell they’re going to say in these meetings since his job is basically going to be ending at some point. I’ve also been battling insomnia and I think as soon as he told me Richard knew, without meaning to, that he’d made it worse. There was no way in hell I’d be able to sleep after hearing that. I didn’t sleep. But I also didn’t do something that I might have done in the past.

My first instinct was that I needed food. Stress reaction. BUT instead of reaching for something carbohydrate heavy I thought about it for a few minutes and instead got out the wok at nearly 2 in the morning and made myself a wok full of steaming chinese hell. Broccoli, carrots, bell pepper, onion, garlic, lemon grass, snow peas, and kung pao sauce (hot, hot, hot!). The wok was almost full and I ate the whole damned thing… with chopsticks while I watched the Towering Inferno on TV. No rice. Just veggies. Last nights dinner was really low points wise and after Richard left for work I had some bagel chips and a wedge of laughing cow lower fat cheese so I would have something else on my stomach when I took my meds. I’ve also been swigging water for all it’s worth.
So I’m back to where I was with the weight and I’ll slowly get back to where I was exercising. That will take a little time. But I can do it.

The meeting? Well it was another of their “We haven’t made any decisions and blah, blah, blah” again. Really fucking irritating. Get everyone even more stressed out. But we’re okay for awhile I guess. So back to doing what I was doing.

Today we wait for a delivery of blank dvds we ordered. They were supposed to be here yesterday but after noticing there was a problem with the tracking yesterday I called and after an hour found out that our DVDs were on a train that had had a problem. They arrive today. Richard bless his heart called yesterday while I took a short nap to find out that my table is ready they’re just waiting for UPS to pick it up to deliver it. (Sometime from the 8th to the 14th.)

Then we’re going to Super Cao Ngyuyen. A HUGE asian market here in town. I’ve never been there but Richard said I’d love it. They have Japanese plates and bowls and I am so there it’s frightening! Never mind sauces, veggies, and the fresh seafood (swimming) that they have! lol

But for now I’m sitting back, resting, listening to something I love: Streaming Soundtracks and patting myself on the back for not having eaten my way into oblivion during the past week! :)

Damn.. just damn!

I can’t believe that since the last week of January I’ve walked 55 miles!

I used to go to Walmart and nearly die from all the walking. Now I go to walmart (a super walmart) and have no problems. I park out in the back 40 so I can walk even further. I see skinny people gasping and complaining about how huge the place is and I almost snicker. Okay, I snicker quietly to myself. The knees don’t hurt as much and I’m more flexible. The arthritis in my feet isn’t as bad and they really only hurt when the weather changes.

At first my goal was 275. What I weighed when Richard and I met. Now I’m thinking of going even lower.

If I tried for 200 (which is less than I was in High School) that would mean I’d have lost 135 lbs. I could go for 185 - 180. I don’t really want to go too much lower because being 5′11 I think that would be too much. Statuesque…. that works. Or as Richard describes it.. an amazon.

Yeah, an Amazon with grey hair.. I’m NOT coloring the hair. I earned every fucking one of these grey hairs.

Speaking of grey hair, we were watching The Rock last night with Sean Connery. I told Richard I was going to take a shower and wash my “Sean Connery grunge look hair”. He laughed. I shook it loose out of the hair band and asked him what he thought it looked like.

He said the Sean Connery grunge look. lol

I am considering having it cut. But I want the two white streaks (and they are white) in front to be emphasized. My Aunts love my hair. Elaine had less grey hair than I did when she saw it! It’s taken a long time to embrace the grey. A couple of years ago I dyed it and it finally dawned on me that when it was dyed it made my complexion look strange. I looked extremely pale. With the grey I look normal. So.. grey it stays.

Update: Exercise

60 miles left on my virtual journey to Tulsa (115 at the start)

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Shoulder is much better. Still not lifting heavy objects.

3/20: 3 miles

3/21: Nothin (3 hours sleep. nuff said.)

3/22: Nothin (Too busy getting ready for company)

3/23: 2 miles

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Goals:

My first goal was to hit that 300 mark. I did that.

The next goal was to get underneath 300. Done.

My next goal is to get to 290.

This morning I weighed in at 294.50

Small goals. One bite and mile at a time.

296

Not because of exercise… still fighting with my shoulder. Got a little too adventurous while exercising and screwed up my shoulder. Richard has made me take it easy. No exercise and no heavy lifting. It’s feeling better but it’s a bitch when you sleep on your right side normally and you can’t. I’ve been averaging between 2 hours and 4 hours of sleep a night. I’m tired.