Did pretty well on the diet yesterday but oddly enough I ate some potato salad twice yesterday (for energy for the workouts) and low and behold today I weighed in at 234.4! I lost 2.4 pounds! HOLY COW!

Didn’t check my BG but I’ll try it again sometime and see what the monitor of doom says. lol If it raises it too much.. it’s gone! That’s how I decide what I can eat. I eat to the monitor. What it says goes.

I’ve done 2 days for the first week of Couch to 5k. Skipping today. Woke up and can barely turn my neck. It was sore yesterday and maybe sleeping on my crappy pillows didn’t help. Okay… I can’t do the whole sitting still thing now. I cheated and did the EA Active med sprint again and boxing. I was careful and went easy. But at least I did something so I don’t feel lazy. I think there may be an “inner athlete” inside me screaming to get out. Never would have thought I’d WANT to exercise! Tomorrow I’ll do my 3rd day.. which means Friday it will get harder. Oh joy!

Discovered something I really like. Not sure where I saw it mentioned but it’s called a Big mac in a bowl. Tasty! And tastes just like a big mac! Browned ground beef with rehydrated dried onion added to it. Melt some american cheese on top of it in the microwave. Plop all of that on top of some lettuce in a bowl. Add some chopped up dill pickle and thousand island dressing and whamo! Big mac in a bowl. I’ve done it with ground turkey and beef.

Got home and tried them on and they fit! I was concerned about doing that because of having looked at their sizing charts. Technically they shouldn’t have fit. lol But they did!

Anyway… cool day!

I thought the ass problem I was having was all in my head until googling “tail bone pain after weight loss”. Yes, I actually googled using those terms! OMG it’s not just me! Seems that a lot of people are in pain.

I should start an online organization.. I can see it now.. The Brotherhood and Sisterhood of OH MY ACHING ASS!

To explain to those who don’t know what I mean. When you sit on your ass for years and eat cheetos and drink sodas you build up.. what shall I call it.. a cushion of fat on your ass. Yes, that about covers it. Literally. Hehe. After you get fed up with said cheetos and sodas and lose weight you lose that. I think the first time I noticed it was, excuse me for saying this it sounds SO fucking weird, when I hit my tailbone on the toilet seat for the first time. Having broken my tailbone twice in my life all I can say is OWWWW! NOT a good feeling!

But I’m sitting here today thinking this office chair sucks severely. It’s not just the tailbone. I’m sitting on what has become muscle. Yeah, that’s a good thing but it also isn’t. I know people complain all the time about their fat asses but DAMN! I’ve exercised so much that I’m sitting on muscle, ass and upper thighs. OMG this chair sucks! I told my Doc and she nodded and said, yep, it’s gonna be painful till you get used to it. Thanks. My Aunt, an LPN, suggested a hemorrhoid cushion. Yeah, I want to walk around for the rest of my life with one of those babies!

Going to wally world today.. I MUST find something to sit on…

Why? Because when we had the fire last year the only thing I managed to rescue was my genealogy bag. I stood outside and my heart was breaking because I wasn’t able to save anything else. I tried to drag a rubbermaid container with our family photos outside but I couldn’t lift it. The smoke started filling the apartment so I made a choice, grabbed my purse, car keys, and the genealogy bag. Standing outside watching the firemen working I wasn’t crying over my clothes or anything trivial. I was mourning over lost memories and information I’d never be able to replace. And my cats.. I couldn’t save them either. Thank GOD and those wonderful firemen we were lucky and only had to deal with minor smoke damage. (The place stunk for weeks! I highly recommend getting smell absorbers. They really helped!) The cats were fine too!

BEFORE that I had decided, and worked, on scanning family photos. Living in Oklahoma I’d seen a woman on television who had been a victim of a tornado. She was walking through the rubble clutching a few torn photos and crying. The “wonderful” reporters asked her what was wrong. I’ll never forget her answer. “I can replace the house and the things.. I can’t replace my photos and family treasures.” It broke my heart and I decided to do something about ensuring we wouldn’t be in that position. Then the fire. Now I totally understand how that woman felt. OMG, it’s a horrible feeling.

It’s never a bad idea to prepare for an emergency. Things you’ll need like flashlights, batteries, some food and water. And it’s never a bad idea to have some way to save things you couldn’t live without. Do it now. $130 for a hard drive is cheap compared to that awful feeling I experienced that day.

Weighed in at 235 although after discussing my scale issues and mentioning that the Wii gave me a weight of 228.8 she said she would bet that it was closer to true. Said from looking at me that she thinks their scale weighs me heavier. (Old school sliding weight type.) She said to go with the Wii number.

My A1C went from 6.3 to 5.2.
Cholesterol total went from 181 to 154
LDL Cholesterol went from 124 to 101
Triglycerides went from 122 to 94
HDL Cholesterol went from 33 to 34 (low) She said that could be because of heredity. That I won’t be able to raise it too much. Suggested I continue with the mono fats, almonds, etc.

She was very happy with what I’ve done. After talking about how I cook, from scratch, pre-cooking chicken, etc.. she said they should hire me to give a class on diet and exercise. Said I’d be the perfect example. lol She also was pleased with how I’m exercising and how well it’s working.

I see her again in 6 months. She said if I do as well then as I have this time she’d remove the diagnosis of pre-diabetic!

She called me a marvel when talking to her nurse who agreed. lol Nice to hear it from someone not related or married to me.

That’s the wii board. I ain’t touchin that other scale today. Still worried about which one is right. Want this appointment to be over with!

Realized that in November the Doc’s scales said I weighed 292. When I started using the wii fit board it said the same thing! Without the feet! So I’m going to assume that it’s pretty damned close to the Doc’s scales. I’ll weigh on it without the feet today AND see what her scales say. Bahhh! I hate all this scale shit!

My waist, I think used to be a fucking 52 or 54. It’s now a fucking 45! My hips were HUGE. Now they’re down to fucking 50! Fuck SCALES!

*Added later

Hah! The wii said I weigh 228.8 (without feet)… hell’s bells! If that’s the case then I’ve lost 106 friggin pounds! (63 pounds since November!) *crosses fingers and hopes that THIS number is right!* Let you know later… if the other scales are right there’s probably gonna be some screamin!

Went back to NBC and bought some more clothes. Worth about $350 paid around $88. My style is simple. Tank tops, t-shirts, skirts, capris, shorts, etc. I did buy one thing that absolutely floored my ass. I bought a dress for $24 that was supposedly $99 to start with? WTF? It’s a simple tank dress out of a light t-shirt material! Are you fucking kidding me?!? Someone would actually pay that much for that? LOL
Hubster told me last night not to consider the trip to NBC my Mother’s day present.. that I needed the clothes. Awww he’s so sweet!

I’ve decided that I have to live with the numbers. IF I don’t make it in there Monday having lost 100lbs I can deal with it. I was doing this whole WOE through 2 major holidays (Thanksgiving and Christmas) and a death and all that trauma.

I’ll have lost 55 to 57 pounds since November. That will be 98 or 99 pounds down from my original 335. That is a major accomplishment! I’m proud of myself and DAMNED happy to be wearing smaller sized clothes!

I walked 3.6 miles this morning.

I’ve already worked out with EA Active (cardio boxing, weights, and a core workout). I’ll be walking a mile.. still going slowly with the walking. Later I’ll be using my bike and doing two interval workouts.

Being very careful with the diet and I’ll be swilling water. Hopefully I’ll be at my goal AGAIN before the Doc appt May 7th. I would love to go in there having lost 57 pounds since I saw her last and 100lbs total.

Oooh went to a place here called 1/2 of 1/2 Name Brand Clothing. I got a bunch of new clothes for $87 that would have cost $330! Nice to try on clothes and have to put them back not because they’re too small but because they’re too BIG! Bought things I could alter myself and still use as I lose weight. Hubby asked what I want for Mother’s day… think I’ll ask for a return trip to get a few more things. And some more hangers for my closet.. I’m running out. lol

Crap… that reminds me that I need to figure out what I’m going to wear tomorrow..

This is what I did yesterday:

Exercise: 1.5 miles with Walk It Out, crunches, squats, ab exercises, EA Active 2 Boxing, Exercise Bike Intervals x 2

During the boxing.. I pretended I was beating the SNOT out of the scales. lol Oddly enough I love the boxing. Going to the store to get fruits and veggies and when I get back I’m going to get my butt moving. I may bump the walking up to 2 miles today. Foot feels better and my poor toe isn’t as painful. The exercise bike intervals.. OMG it felt like I’d run a mile. Love it.

Whoa… never thought I’d love exercise. I missed it when I couldn’t do it. This from someone who in elementary school walked all the way in the 600 yard walk/run test. lol

When I first measured my waist it was 49 inches. (Don’t want to know what it was at 335! My waist is now… drumroll please…. 44 inches! OMG my hips measure 48.5! Last time I checked, maybe a week ago, it was 50! HOLY CRAP!!!

Thought I’d gotten through that and then the whole fucking scale thing reared it’s head. It really fucks with your head when you find out you’re not doing as well as you thought you were doing. You’re bopping along thinking I weigh 233 pounds then WHAMO! You find out you actually weigh 239! OMG that has been really hard to deal with at this point! I thought I’d reached my short term goal! At this rate I won’t reach my short term goal and it fucking SUCKS! (235 by May 7th).

Then I hurt my foot. Crap.Crap.Crap. Thank god my Aunt sent me that early birthday present although it’s really fucking hard and kicking my ass! But it by God gets your heart rate up! It’s been two weeks since I screwed up the foot and I think it’s getting better. I also think it’s not a stress fracture. I haven’t had any real pain. It ached a little and that was it. I don’t know. But it’s feeling better. You’d think someone who has had god only knows how many sprained ankles in her life would know. lol

This post today is to kick my ass out of feeling sorry for myself. It’s not THAT bad but you know how it feels when things go to shit. lol

Since the end of November (right before Thanksgiving) I have lost 52.4 pounds. In about five months time you could say I’ve lost about 10.5 pounds per month. That’s nothing to fucking cry over. That’s really good! From my original weight, 335, I’ve lost 96 pounds. How many people want to lose 20 fucking pounds and I’ve lost 96!

That’s a 28.66% weight loss. In order help with my diabetes (pre-pre) I needed to have a 5% loss. Yesterday I checked my BG and it was freaking 70 which is normal. My fasting BG is in the 80s! Jesus Christ I ate CORN last night and my BG one hour after was 89! When I started this mess if I ate corn my BG would be 130-140 or higher! That’s a freakin miracle!

I have made great strides in improving my health. I have lost a buttload of weight. I feel better. I heal faster. I don’t feel “weird” if my blood sugar is around normal. I am kicking ass and I need to remind myself of that! My family tries to convince me of it but when you’re fucking fat you have a fat head too! lol

I promised my son if he’d do what he needs to do I will run up the elephant enclosure ramp at the zoo with him on his birthday on October 14th. (He’s an animal freak and elephants are his favorites.) The idea of doing that scares the hell out of me! That’s about six months away.

I will lose more weight. I will be healthy. My goal is to weigh 170… if possible 160 or 165 to give myself some wiggle room. lol